DS's Obsession with Motorhomes

My kid has been absolutely obsessed with wanting to go RVing let alone buy a motorhome of our own to use. I'm not sure where he thinks that we could put one of these things but then again when we went to Disneyland for the first time with him, he wanted to tear down our house and build a hotel to live in complete with room service. I think he just likes the idea of being able to watch TV inside the RV but he doesn't even come close to realizing the cost of one of them. Not only would I have to make sure that the thing had an rv extended warranty, there's all the additional costs of registration and everything else. It must be really great to have that child state of mind where you don't worry about even one grown up thought. Sometimes I feel like the bad guy for throwing them out there and bringing him down to reality. The up side is that we can at least vacation in an RV and not have to worry about those costly things of owning our own. If we did then we just might as well move into the thing. LOL!

Mid-life Crisis

My sister-in-law is having a lot of fun lately. Sometimes I can't help but be a wee bit jealous. Her kids are grown and she just got a divorce from a not so great man so she's been "celebrating"...a lot. lol I'm really glad that she's ridding herself from all the bad "eggs" in her life though. He wasn't that great at all and it just kept holding her down and making her feel terrible all the time. I think he drank a lot too.

It is really interesting watching her. She's an ER nurse so her schedule is really off but on all the nights that she isn't working she's out clubbing. Clubbing! She's got to be in her late 40's at best. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with going dancing but all the time? I'm not sure about all that. I guess that's just me though...and the funny part is that I'm a lot younger than she is!

Break Time!

Well, sort of. Our coffee maker broke not long ago and it hasn't been the same since. We had this current one sitting in the basement and it's now evident why. It brews bad coffee and takes up too much room. Not to mention that it is made of a less hard plastic so it's pretty flimsy which doesn't help when dealing with hot stuff. So, we've been pouring over all the coffee makers that we can find looking for something that will suit my mother's taste. It's always left up to her since she can nitpick her way through anything and everything. I miss being able to have a decent cup of coffee, or any at all for that matter since this one doesn't make enough either. Besides boil the water I'm not really sure what it actually does do well. LOL!

The Day I Lost It

Today I seemed to totally lose my mind. I've had so many small things happen to me in the last month that add up to a larger impact that I couldn't function at all. It ended up that I couldn't even be upset or angry about that 'last straw' and I didn't do anything but sit and involuntarily cry. I haven't hit this state in a very long time but apparently I needed to release some how.

I'm sure we've all had this happen to us at some point in our lives. You know you've lost control over enough that you aren't where you want to be, where you could be, and many things are out of your control to reach that goal. That's me. I had a definite goal this month and I know that I'm not going to make it because I had to depend on unreliable people. I knew that I was frustrated but wow, I didn't realize exactly how bad it was. Tears rolled down my face once the realization set in that I couldn't do any more than I have been doing. After that I ended up in a semi vegetative state while I tried to think of another solution. I totally lost any appetite that I might have had so that even the best diet pills weren't needed today but I made sure to drink plenty of water. The one thing that I can be thankful for is that this breakdown was a "calm" one and a release of emotions rather than pure anger and frustration. I guess there is always another side to the storm.

The Caloric Restriction Diet

There's been lots of talk lately about reducing your caloric intake since Oprah aired a show around it. I think it's funny and impressive how influential she is. Anyway, the other night on Nightline they talked to a guy who's being studied and has been on this diet for 8 years. He's 5'9" and weighs 130lbs which is quite low although he doesn't look too sickly. Not only does he eat most only raw fruits and vegetables, he counts the calories of those too. Instead of eating a whole apple, he will peel the apple and only eat the peels. He claims to have an enormous amount of energy and says he feels better than ever before.

At first this diet seemed to be another fad by some renaming the raw food diet and the like but it does make obvious sense that you would live a longer healthier life by eating naturally as we did at the beginning of man. I'm not sure how I feel about the extremity of the whole thing but I wouldn't be opposed to trying to incorporate more of it into my life. Not to mention that the "side effects" are weight loss, higher muscle mass, higher brain functionality, and increased antioxidants which can give any great diet pill a run for the money. Not that I'm opposed to those either (since I've been known to try quite a few of them). LOL!

Almost Married

There's something that's driving me crazy...this friend that I have is getting married this year. She's planned this wedding through out 2-3 relationships and I kind of feel like she's getting married just to get married. She had major issues with the guy when they first started dating and in the end he ended up with her after the other girl rejected him. They've been together about 5 years now and as nice as that sounds, she's more like his mother than his girlfriend. I've tried to be supportive the whole time but she isn't the best friend one could have either. It's kind of a mess.

Even better is that her friendship has been crappy with me over the last year and I'm expected to go to this wedding...I really don't want to go after all she's done lately but she is my oldest friend. Some of the things she's done are just so unforgivable though. What would you do?

Feeling Beautiful

After being a mom for the past 13 years it's been hard to really feel like anything more than a mom. It almost seems that once you become pregnant your body becomes part of the child's and it isn't until years later that you "get it back". After I had the first one I was able to seperate myself and be able to enjoy being me but after I had the second one I have yet to regain my sense of self. She's a wild one and it is not uncommon for me to feel like the mother of a monkey. I'm constantly being swung on, climbed over, if not just a seat.

I haven't felt like a woman in years and even with the purchase of some beautiful women's lingerie I don't feel as great as I could. It used to be that if I knew I enjoyed the pretty things I was wearing, it didn't matter what was over it I felt pretty. Now...well, not so much. I think this all just has to do with having a little one again and feeling the loss of what I had regained. Hopefully things will get better soon!

A Little Ackward

My father-in-law's birthday is coming up and we aren't really sure what to get him. He always says for us not to get him something which kind of makes things easy since there's never anything he wants or needs. He's the kind of man that also keeps himself at a distance so you never really know him and he never really knows you.

One year for Christmas he got me this piece of heart pendant jewelry which was REALLY nice but totally not something I'd wear. I've held onto it for our daughter to have later on because I really didn't want to get rid of it. That was probably the best thing he's ever given me if I got anything at all from him...much better than bath soaps. :o}

It's not really about the relationship or lack there of. I never understood people that think caring is shown through how much money you spend on some one. I mean, is that really necessary?

Childhood Memories...

One of my youngest memories is of when I was around 2 or 3. I remember sitting in an apartment in our building that was below ours getting ready to watch (what I believe to be) the first showing of Michael Jackson's Thriller video. There were a bunch of is gathered around a TV sitting on the floor. I can still remember how scared I got once the giant contacts were put in his eyes. LOL!

It's really sad how Michael Jackson's life and death came about. He was one of my most idolized celebrities since I was that age. When he died I was in total shock, as many others were I'm sure, and it wasn't until his service that I came to realize that he was really gone. Over the years all we heard was all the bad things happening to him so in a way it was bittersweet for him. At least his music will live on along with each and every one of our memories that corresponds with them.

Click to watch Michael Jackson's Thriller Video

Being Fat...

There's a couple things that I won't do in my life time and getting surgery for being fat is one of them. I can completely understand that for some people it is a last resort/effort to save their lives but for the person with about 100lbs to lose, I'm really not too sure. With the right diet, proper amount of exercise, and possibly diet pills people have been able to lose more than that much weight in a less obtrusive way. I have never been that heavy (thank goodness) and know that it is all a hard struggle no matter what you're position is.

Here's one example of why not to get surgery unless you're prepared...

I met this lady once that isn't the trimmest but not OVERLY obese...she could be in a lot better shape than she is. Anyway, after knowing her for a bit she divulged that she had had weight loss surgery. I was pretty surprised because after all the time and money that goes into having the surgery and recovering one would think that they have been given a fantastic opportunity and not just let themselves fall right back into the place that they were. This is all about the doctor picking the right solution for their patients and this was obviously NOT the right patient for this kind of procedure.

Dishwashing Disaster

Are you happy with your kitchen? We must have the world's worst sink in there. Because of the height and design of it and the faucet each time that you do dishes you end up with a tidal wave of water coming at you and you can tell who did the dishes last by the gigantic water spot on their belly. Oh it's horrible! Even just changing the faucet would be a God send.

We started looking at Danze faucets because we love their sleek and modern designs hoping that something will work with the sink that we can't afford to replace at the moment. We thought this one was really neat but it's smaller and for a bar which we don't have (but would love one). Why can't we just win the lotto? ^-^