Working Like a Horse

I've been totally in my own world for the past week or two. Work is coming in like crazy as with every year around this time. It's nice knowing that as bleak as the year will look I can still afford a semi-decent Christmas for the kids.

The bad part is that the house will fall into disarray and things will get put off until it's completely too late. Right now I have medical papers to fill out that should have been sent out days ago and the house needs to start getting cleaned for Christmas Eve's party here. My work breaks involve more work and it tends to stink until after New Year's. So I go to at least vacuum and find out that we're in need of a new 115334 vacuum motor before I can actually do anything. Great. I would clean the rest of the floors but we are in dire need of a steam mop too! The last time I tried to clean those floors I had to do it with some handheld steam cleaner we were given that only lasts for about eight minutes and has no floor attachment. Yep, I was on my hands and knees scrubbing with some funky head and ended up spraining my wrist...but it SO needed to be done. *sigh* The things "we" do...

It's a WHAT?

LOL! Yeah, this one sounds a little strange but I think it's funny when people talk to you about things as if you know.

One of my friends designs websites and stuff and was talking my ear off about all kind of things that I can't even remember to repeat. Something called cad drawings came up and I was like wait, what in the world is that? I got some lengthy explanation that I completely failed to understand other than that it's computer-aided design...um, o k. LOL! Apparently it's really neat and helps illustrate stuff but that's about all I could make of it since my brain totally does not function that way.

Normally when I'm talking to people I try to explain most things that they wouldn't understand KNOWING that there would be question and a total misunderstanding of what I was saying at all but when it gets this technical I'd want to say that it should be more "industry talk" unless a blank stare is welcome and it doesn't matter if I get it or not. LOL!

Black Friday-Cyber Monday

Well it's officially the start of the shopping season. With Black Friday gone we can look forward to another great day of sales and promotions...that is, if you aren't broke from a few days ago as I am. LOL

I was one of the thousands of lunatics that went out into the cold and stood in line just to get INTO Toys R Us at midnight, the night of Thanksgiving. I had DH in line for Old Navy's door buster since we were hours early and should have known better. Men can't handle shopping pressure. He cracked having to pee and left the line. By the time he came back at least 20 more people jumped ahead of him and we totally lost hope. While this happened I was inside the toy store (having to pee myself) in line for a video game that made me stand there for over an hour. In total I stood in three lines and didn't get out of the store until after 3AM! It was utter madness. I was in total shock of how many people were in that store at that time of night. The best part is that there REALLY wasn't anything THAT great to be buying to begin with. I'm happy though, I saved myself a good amount of money after all that time in lines and shelling out $200 for a handful of things. LOL!

Laptop or Desktop?

I'm considering getting my son a computer for Christmas but I'm really not sure which way to go. Personally I LOVE my laptop, even if I don't move around it's nice to know I have the option, but for him I'm not sure I want him moving it all over the place. Not only is he clumsy, I'd like to be able to keep an eye on him when he's using it.

Since laptops have taken over I wonder if people still prefer desktop computers. I know one of my friends would like to trade her laptop in if she could. her laptop has been giving her trouble and I think it's for the same reason as me. We uses ours so frequently that there are many times turning it off is really a pain and waste of time but laptop fans can't really handle the heavy useage. I'd love to know what others think if anyone wants to weigh in.

My Son the Blogger

My son is in a technology class at school and he just told me that they had to start a topic blog. I don't assume that they'll be making them use web directories or anything since it's a class project but he may want to keep it up. I thought that was really funny since I can't stick to one topic ever but he's a simplified kid so it shouldn't be hard for him. I didn't get to talk to him about it too much since his hormones are raging like rapids and he's constantly ready to freak out but I can guess that it's probably about video games. This is the kid that aspires to work at Bungee (the makers of the Halo games) when he grows up and has drooled over every gamer room that Extreme Makeover Home Edition has done. Eventually I'll probably cave and give him a room that he can be happy with but then we won't get to play either. LOL!

That Wedding

Well I ended up making my choice and I didn't go to the wedding. I've decided to totally let go of that friendship and move on. I did feel extremely guilty the morning of Halloween knowing that I should have been there but it just wouldn't have been right for any of us to go. I'm sure it was lovely, I'll never see pictures of it but that's okay. I hope she had a good day. Well really, I hope she picked the right guy but that's another story and not my worry. I'm much more relaxed now that it's over and I don't have to wonder about what to do anymore. I am sad that things can't ever be the same with us but they haven't been for years anyway, I was kidding myself.

Adios!

I'm so glad that this year is almost over. All I can think is "clean start" with a better outlook. Things have reached such a low that it has to come up soon. I'm aiming for a vacation to celebrate a new beginning next summer. I couldn't decide for a while where I wanted to go...Disneyland, Oregon, and orlando vacations all sounded so good. In the end I chose Disneyland because it's close enough that we can save money on travel (and have more to spend on fun). I'm already looking forward to next year and getting this one done with. I don't think there was anything good that came out of this year at all for us.

Medical

I'm kind of excited, I may be able to get insurance for us soon. I have to see what the insurance quote says but if I can keep plugging away then I might be able to make it happen. How would have thought that having insurance would be such a luxury? So many of us don't have it now that it really has become an epidemic. Then of course there's so much controversy over how to fix the whole thing that it just gets plain tiring. To be honest, I don't even listen to what's being said about it because it just gets annoying. Most of the people that have anything to say about it are people that won't ever lose thier's so I really don't think they have any room to talk to begin with. It really whould be left up to the people that don't have any to vote on.

Self Esteem

Mine's lowered a whole lot since starting a new gig. I thought I was okay at what I do but with so many different people letting you know that you may not be...well, it's kind of a downer. I do miss the other gig I had but I don't see anything coming my way anytime soon, if ever again. That's a bummer too. It was nice to have more than one thing to do, kind of broke things up some.

I'm totally losing confidence in myself and my ability to bring money in. It's to the point that I almost feel like giving up but I can't because I'm paying for Christmas alone. Ugh!

Ouch!

I'm not moving enough...this I knew but it was confirmed last night. We had a great time trick or treating. The little one had a blast and was so happy to be getting candy. Now I'm just trying to keep myself from eating it all to avoid having to run out for a fat burner. LOL! With the holidays coming up I'm trying to keep control and not over eat but boy is it hard! Plus since we're broke the only real thing we've been able to make are cookies...that hardly solves the problem. Anyway, I had to carry her more than half the time and my arm and hips are about to fall apart. I thought I might have problems today. I'm headed out to get myself some incentive to work out soon so hopefully that will keep me going for a while.

Stash It Away

We've never really stocked up on emergancy supplies and some how I think it's going to end up biting us in the behind some day. LOL! Yeah, it won't be any laughing matter when we're out of safety products and some one's about to lose a limb but for now I think it's okay. The whole thing just costs so much to keep up for a family our size and we can't even afford to stock our fridge now. I'm not sure what we're going to do when the "big one" hits but that's another worry for another day for now.

Big Spot - Big Scam

Have you all seen those commercials for bigspot. com? They claim to pay you for taking surveys but what they really do is hook you up to other sites that offer surveys or focus groups. They make it seem that you will be paid to do them when really most of the sites offer points or mostly prize drawings. It's just like everything else that you see online about survey taking. It's really such a shame because there really are companies that depend on this kind of research but they are way out numbered by the crappy companies.